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One thing I am good at is admitting the truth to myself. I know who I am and what I am, and there’s not much point in trying to kid around and fool myself, because I’m not falling for it. I’ve always been a black-and-white person with very little gray area, and in my mind right is right and wrong is wrong. It is what it is. The same is true of me. I am what I am, and what you see is what you get. Mostly.
Today I’m going to tell you some things that are true about me.
*I had a very messy childhood that involved a divorce, an absent father, and quite a bit of dysfunction and upheaval. I like to think I escaped unscathed from the icky parts but deep down I know I really didn’t. I just cover it well.
*I don’t like to need people. I am fiercely independent, independent to a fault. I’m doing better but still would rather do things myself than depend on someone else. This is not a good way to make your spouse feel needed.
*I am something of a lazy housekeeper. There are so many more interesting things to do than clean house, so I tend to do what is necessary for sanitary living and leave the rest. Do not ask me the last time I washed my baseboards because you will not like the answer.
*I cover a canyon of insecurity with a fragile tent of good humor and quick wit (at least I like to *think* I’m funny). And I’m still wondering if people like me, even as I try to act like I don’t care.
*I have two challenging children at home, and they are challenging in diametrically opposite ways. Sometimes I have trouble changing gears from the sensitive one to the controlling one, and I rarely talk about my parenting challenges because I feel so inadequate to the job. I feel like no one is going to understand my particular circumstances and it’s going to come across as whining, so I just keep it to myself.
So there are some true things about me. What about you?